My earliest memory of experiencing gratitude goes back to my preschool years. Pink pyjamas. I really wanted pyjamas to sleep in. My parents were finally stepping out of poverty, and having pyjamas to sleep stylishly in was hardly on their agenda.
So imagine my sheer joy on that fateful day that I came home from school, and Mum presented me with pink pyjamas. I recall it had collars, mauve pipings, and – “It was on sale, and everyone was trying to grab at them. People stepped on my hands, but I managed to get you this. Happy?” Mum asked.
Happy? No. Guilty, yes. But also this new feeling stirring within. Gratitude. It would me take a couple of decades to encounter this word again.
My second brush with gratitude was intentional. I actively went seeking it. Or rather, to be more accurate, I was seeking to build myself a better life – and I realised that the hero ingredient was gratitude. Roman statesman, lawyer, scholar, philosopher, and academic sceptic, Cicero once said, “Gratitude is not only the greatest of the virtues, but the parent of all of the others.” It took many years of studies, research and stifling of my inner voice, screaming out that Cicero was right before I finally accepted it. He was right. Gratitude was an attitude that didn’t come naturally to me. ‘Self-absorbed’, ‘spoilt’, ‘pampered’, ‘princess-mentality’, and ‘short-tempered’ were some terms people closest to me had often used to describe me. They were right.
I knew I needed to tailor myself a strategy that would see me through the initial stages of building myself a life well-lived. One that was beyond the vague concept of ‘willpower’, one that wasn’t simply built on buzzwords and clever marketing.
“Gratitude is not only the greatest of the virtues, but the parent of all of the others.”
In my quest, I took classes from Martin Seligman, the father of Positive Psychology. I deeply researched Christopher Peterson’s groundbreaking work on Character Strengths and Virtues. I enrolled in countless classes, seminars and workshops based on The Science of Wellness. Consequentially, Revel took form, but it wouldn’t be until late 2020 that I finally found the desire, the drive, and the strategy to start myself on my journey towards a live well-lived.
In my attempts to over-compensate for my ‘princess-mentality’, I soon earned a new label: ‘Pushover’. I was frustrated, angry, and felt grossly used and misused. Balance was what I sought but never seemed able to implement in my life. This season of life marked the beginnings of my interest in Psychology.
As I grew more desperate to ‘fix myself’ I started relying on my education in Child Psychology. I drew on theories and studies to understand my behaviours and emotions. I read voraciously on philosophy, astrology and numerology (don’t tell my Mum). I studied religions and beliefs (don’t tell my Mum). I reached out to people I had cut ties with to understand how they perceived me, and my decisions (and yep, don’t tell my Mum).
As I read, talked and reflected more – I finally began to see myself better. Suppressed memories resurfaced. Childhood emotions, adolescent decisions and negative behaviours were understood and processed through writing therapy which helped me discover so much about myself, my thoughts, reasons, patterns, and emotions. Writing therapy was the first necessary step in my journey.
“There is no greater agony than bearing an untold story inside you.”
– Maya Angelou
Writing therapy – also called journal therapy, is a form of expressive writing that benefits your mind and body. It is often used by life coaches and in counselling sessions, but it can be done individually as a self-care strategy, too.
As relatively busy adults (but this very often happens with people of all ages, including young children), we tend to suppress the most painful feelings associated with negative experiences in our lives. While this feels like the right thing to do to ‘carry on’ with life, we are actually moving forward crippled by unprocessed feelings and emotions. On the flip side, we might allow the negative experience to dominate our life. In either scenario, we are becoming emotionally trapped, with the inability to process and make peace with the sentiments we connect to the negative experiences.
Labelling our emotions, and finding words to elaborate on events and experiences – words to honestly describe our pain and emotions can be hard. This is an activity which engages both sides of your brain.
As we consistently practice this, both sides of our brain work together to rationally help us process, and find creative ways to gain greater clarity and understanding. We begin to eventually see the negative experience as a context of our whole life, rather than it as something crippling certain domains of our lives.
Writing therapy engages both sides of our brain to work together to rationally help us process, and find creative ways to gain greater clarity and understanding.
I typically recommend two primary usages of writing therapy. Let’s explore some simple techniques and exercises you can use in your own personal writing therapy.
Writing therapy is fundamental to processing negative experiences, so we can properly move on with building a life well lived. Aside from prompt journals and diaries, we carry a healthy selection of positive affirmation tools that will keep you motivated in your journey. If you’re looking for ideas, take me up on my free consultations which are offered (almost) weekly, Saturdays in Singapore.
Co-creator of the 2023 Gratitude Planner, and Founder of Revel, Ann is a passionate advocate of Positive Psychology. Pioneering the retail of wellness journals – dubbed the ‘one-stop journal shop’, Ann is on her mission to simplify wellness by making it easy to understand, and making solutions easy to access.